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Beltane.
It is amazing how spring has literally sprung upon us here in Illinois. Just last week it had snowed, and today is a high of 74 degrees. As much as I get frustrated with winter weather, I do love having actual seasons LOL
I feel a certain goddess possibly making herself known to me. Approaching cautiously since I don't believe I have that particular ancestral lineage. I feel she is asking me to do a DNA test.
Although I've never heard mention of anyone in our family having this heritage, I also know that my family tree has a lot of crooked, broken branches. So, yeah. That will probably happen eventually.
In 2015 when I went to New Orleans, I made an offering and a petition. Without going into details, I will say that what I asked for has definitely come to fruition, even though it hasn't been easy.
Today I am reminded of my age. Today I am reminded that tomorrow is not a guarantee. Yet the future moves on, even if you aren't prepared. Lately, thinking about my future has given me anxiety. Part of that anxiety stems from the fact that I know I am not really living now. Yet, I am getting older and that is reality. I may feel young at heart but I'm incing ever so close to 40.
Trying to make positive strides in being more social and dating. And in the spirit of Beltane, I signed up for Tindr hahaha
Not that I'm expecting any decent matches but you never know ;)
It is amazing how spring has literally sprung upon us here in Illinois. Just last week it had snowed, and today is a high of 74 degrees. As much as I get frustrated with winter weather, I do love having actual seasons LOL
I feel a certain goddess possibly making herself known to me. Approaching cautiously since I don't believe I have that particular ancestral lineage. I feel she is asking me to do a DNA test.
Although I've never heard mention of anyone in our family having this heritage, I also know that my family tree has a lot of crooked, broken branches. So, yeah. That will probably happen eventually.
In 2015 when I went to New Orleans, I made an offering and a petition. Without going into details, I will say that what I asked for has definitely come to fruition, even though it hasn't been easy.
Today I am reminded of my age. Today I am reminded that tomorrow is not a guarantee. Yet the future moves on, even if you aren't prepared. Lately, thinking about my future has given me anxiety. Part of that anxiety stems from the fact that I know I am not really living now. Yet, I am getting older and that is reality. I may feel young at heart but I'm incing ever so close to 40.
Trying to make positive strides in being more social and dating. And in the spirit of Beltane, I signed up for Tindr hahaha
Not that I'm expecting any decent matches but you never know ;)