On the verge of the Equinox

I am finally getting the fuck out of ILL-ANNOY.
Dallas, Seattle or Brooklyn here I come. Praying for Seattle :D
To be fair, living in Chicago is not the same as the rest of the state. The city will always be home to me, I just want something new.

This week was just an emotional dumpster fire that was only compounded by the fact that I always seem to have PMS the past few years, mostly anxiety, pain in joints and feeling tired/depressed.
It was definitely not the time for deep relationship talks, which of course, he decided to initiate in the middle of the night when I needed to be sleeping :/

This Ostara, I'm finally taking the advice my dad tried to give me years ago.
I won't be putting all my eggs in one basket.
I always do, and I always end up getting hurt.

I need to learn what my peers learned years ago-how to date around, have options, have sex with people without getting emotional, etc.
If Gomez and I work out, that would be amazing, we do love each other <3

Realistically, I know the odds are slim. Between the long distance, money issues, and his autism, our "relationship" would mainly exist via text. That's not enough to sustain two people who are committed to making it work until they can live together, and it's definitely not going to keep things alive when two people are unsure of what they are doing.

I'd like to keep my options open right now.

I'm looking forward to the new opportunities that are in my future. I want to spend the last month or so in Illinois wrapping things up. I need to make a few doctor appointments and take the last 2 exams to get my Associate's degree issued. Then, there will be a few weeks in San Antonio, relaxing and enjoying my birthday :D