that familiar tune

here we go again....

the difference is, this time I know my worth and what I have to offer.
this time, I'm putting my foot down and keeping my standards high.
the hardest part is that I know he loves me, he's just incapable of handling the anxiety and intense emotions that come with making such an emotional commitment.

my heart breaks, because I know he wants to be with me and I know that with therapy he could manage his symptoms better. I wanted to help him and show him what its like to be in a relationship in which he's not being abused or manipulated. he doesn't know what it is like to be taken care of and loved. we had so man adventures planned.
he is so precious and kind and creative and beautiful.
he doesn't deserve to live like this.
but I can't waste my life waiting.