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full moon magick
Feb. 10th, 2020 09:59 amSo, it finally happened.
Aside from the anxiety, there's a little thing called dignity.
Do I have to have this much stress and be demeaned just to make $12 a hour?
I guess my pride just could not take it anymore. I had to run out of there and simply could not make myself come back.
Even if I got insurance and they drugged me up with anxiety meds, I still deserve to be treated with some sort of human decency, which I will never get, working for a company like that.
My panic attack certainly wasn't planned, but once the fog cleared I realized this was probably the best thing that could have happened to me right now.
My S. Node (11 house,Aquarius) and N Node (5th house, Leo) were in direct alignment with the most recent lunation of the Lunar New Year, which began in Aquarius and grew to a Leo full moon. When you consider that the S Node is "life debts" and the N. Node is "life purpose", there is naturally a releasing phase that must happen between the two destinations. This things that hold you back must be released to open the road to your destination.
I had set 3 main goals for 2020, but had not done much toward achieve them because this is the dreamtime. We wait for the arrival of Aries to lend us its determined energy.
Honestly, though, there was no way I was going to spend my days off looking for a new job when I was so stressed.
I was never going to start working out again when my feet were hurting so badly from 8 hours of standing.
I was never going to try new creative projects when I felt like a machine or an emotional punching bag for random strangers, rather than a woman connected to her feminine magic.
Leo reminds us to hold our head high, to be brave and creative. I could never embrace this energy of warmth and self-confidence when I felt like I was on the defensive constantly.
I fully trust the Universe is leading me in the right direction. Blessed Be!
Aside from the anxiety, there's a little thing called dignity.
Do I have to have this much stress and be demeaned just to make $12 a hour?
I guess my pride just could not take it anymore. I had to run out of there and simply could not make myself come back.
Even if I got insurance and they drugged me up with anxiety meds, I still deserve to be treated with some sort of human decency, which I will never get, working for a company like that.
My panic attack certainly wasn't planned, but once the fog cleared I realized this was probably the best thing that could have happened to me right now.
My S. Node (11 house,Aquarius) and N Node (5th house, Leo) were in direct alignment with the most recent lunation of the Lunar New Year, which began in Aquarius and grew to a Leo full moon. When you consider that the S Node is "life debts" and the N. Node is "life purpose", there is naturally a releasing phase that must happen between the two destinations. This things that hold you back must be released to open the road to your destination.
I had set 3 main goals for 2020, but had not done much toward achieve them because this is the dreamtime. We wait for the arrival of Aries to lend us its determined energy.
Honestly, though, there was no way I was going to spend my days off looking for a new job when I was so stressed.
I was never going to start working out again when my feet were hurting so badly from 8 hours of standing.
I was never going to try new creative projects when I felt like a machine or an emotional punching bag for random strangers, rather than a woman connected to her feminine magic.
Leo reminds us to hold our head high, to be brave and creative. I could never embrace this energy of warmth and self-confidence when I felt like I was on the defensive constantly.
I fully trust the Universe is leading me in the right direction. Blessed Be!