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Apr. 8th, 2019 07:02 amfinally saw US. what a great movie! The preview for Pet Cemetery got me excited as well. Hopefully I can catch it before it leaves the theater.
so I decided to subscribe to one of those witchy box things. I'm not sure how I feel about it. On one hand it is neat to get a surprise every month and some of the stuff has turned out to be useful. On the other hand, it is 50 a month and sometimes the stuff doesn't appeal to me and i know i won't use it. one box had vanilla incense and some sort of lavender spell oil- two smells that i really can't stand unless they are blended with other things. it went straight into the garbage BLEGH
with that money i could probably just treat myself to things i actually know i want.
must take my science test this month. it is embarrassing that i keep putting this shit off. but i swore that i would do it before I turned 39 and so i will. the fact that i seem to work better under pressure really does not help the procrastination factor.
truth be told, i'm not driven to do anything particular these days for paid work. I feel more driven about my personal path and learning skills at home.
more than anything, i want:
a stable schedule that doesn't change every goddamn week
benefits
something that doesn't require standing all day or sitting in front of a computer all day. i think i need a mix of tasks.
something close to home, wherever that is at any given time.
thinking back, i mostly enjoyed working at the hospital and at the pharmacy for Provena hospital. it was off campus but overall, i felt like the hospitals had good insurance and benefits, plus no matter where you live, the bus usually goes to the hospital so that was a bonus.
when i was in college and working on the MHU, I thought that i was not the right track but I wasn't. something inside of me was telling me i'd lost interest and eventually i think it manifested in physical symptoms and depression.
when you go through adulthood with no education and shitty jobs, college seems to be the key to solving all your money/career problems. in reality, it is bullshit. the price you pay for a degree isn't worth the $15 an hour job you end up getting, unless you go for nursing or business admin. most bachelors degrees are honestly worthless these days. so many places expect you to have a masters now; it's insane.
so im going to take these last two tests, finally get my associates degree issued, and perhaps go to school for x ray tech or something like that. one of the best pieces of advice i got recently was that perhaps i should try building off what i already have on my resume, rather than pursing an entirely new field that would obviously put me in tons of new debt.
and let's be honest, you ain't doing shit with a BA degree in psych. even haring a masters doesn't get you that far unless you do it in social work. which is laughable considering how little you get paid vs the debt you accumulate.
i'm almost 39; do i really want the debt of a masters degree when i should be saving for my future? obviously, when i was younger and more idealistic the though of working in mental/social work was great but now that I've seen the truth yeah, not so much. plus, when you are younger you have a lot more time to save and pay off the loan.
i know i'd be a shitty nurse. i don't like touching strangers that much. so yeah, something in the medical field that doesn't require much physical contact would be great for me i think. plus, i do genuinely want to help people in some way.
maybe i will change my mind once i see how long it takes to finish the program.at least I've sorted out the fact that i want to go back in the medical field which is a good starting point, i suppose.
so I decided to subscribe to one of those witchy box things. I'm not sure how I feel about it. On one hand it is neat to get a surprise every month and some of the stuff has turned out to be useful. On the other hand, it is 50 a month and sometimes the stuff doesn't appeal to me and i know i won't use it. one box had vanilla incense and some sort of lavender spell oil- two smells that i really can't stand unless they are blended with other things. it went straight into the garbage BLEGH
with that money i could probably just treat myself to things i actually know i want.
must take my science test this month. it is embarrassing that i keep putting this shit off. but i swore that i would do it before I turned 39 and so i will. the fact that i seem to work better under pressure really does not help the procrastination factor.
truth be told, i'm not driven to do anything particular these days for paid work. I feel more driven about my personal path and learning skills at home.
more than anything, i want:
a stable schedule that doesn't change every goddamn week
benefits
something that doesn't require standing all day or sitting in front of a computer all day. i think i need a mix of tasks.
something close to home, wherever that is at any given time.
thinking back, i mostly enjoyed working at the hospital and at the pharmacy for Provena hospital. it was off campus but overall, i felt like the hospitals had good insurance and benefits, plus no matter where you live, the bus usually goes to the hospital so that was a bonus.
when i was in college and working on the MHU, I thought that i was not the right track but I wasn't. something inside of me was telling me i'd lost interest and eventually i think it manifested in physical symptoms and depression.
when you go through adulthood with no education and shitty jobs, college seems to be the key to solving all your money/career problems. in reality, it is bullshit. the price you pay for a degree isn't worth the $15 an hour job you end up getting, unless you go for nursing or business admin. most bachelors degrees are honestly worthless these days. so many places expect you to have a masters now; it's insane.
so im going to take these last two tests, finally get my associates degree issued, and perhaps go to school for x ray tech or something like that. one of the best pieces of advice i got recently was that perhaps i should try building off what i already have on my resume, rather than pursing an entirely new field that would obviously put me in tons of new debt.
and let's be honest, you ain't doing shit with a BA degree in psych. even haring a masters doesn't get you that far unless you do it in social work. which is laughable considering how little you get paid vs the debt you accumulate.
i'm almost 39; do i really want the debt of a masters degree when i should be saving for my future? obviously, when i was younger and more idealistic the though of working in mental/social work was great but now that I've seen the truth yeah, not so much. plus, when you are younger you have a lot more time to save and pay off the loan.
i know i'd be a shitty nurse. i don't like touching strangers that much. so yeah, something in the medical field that doesn't require much physical contact would be great for me i think. plus, i do genuinely want to help people in some way.
maybe i will change my mind once i see how long it takes to finish the program.at least I've sorted out the fact that i want to go back in the medical field which is a good starting point, i suppose.