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My life, my rules
May. 20th, 2018 09:11 amI finally have some answers. Unfortunately, things are much more serious than I'd originally anticipated.
Seeing that hip replacement surgery is in my future, and that I may now deal with chronic pain for the rest of my life, I'm digging my heels in.
I will exercise every day I possibly can, because I refuse to be heavy and unhealthy again; it is a joy to have the ability to move my body.
More than ever, I'm dedicated to my spiritual path and Craft. The link between the body and mind is crucial, especially when it comes to healing. I'm at the point in my witch life where I am seeking the deeper Mysteries and am much less concerned about spells as a resolution to every problem. I make time for spirit because I deserve peace.
Just because I have a chronic condition, doesn't mean I have to "look sick". I'm allowed to express my personality through clothes, makeup or nothing at all if I choose to do so. I refuse to relinquish my authenticity to others.
I refuse to feel bad about needing help. If that means food stamps, medical card, SSI, or even having to get a doctors note to have a chair at work, I will seek the resources I need without guilt or shame.
I will no longer feel guilty for needing to rest, even if that makes me appear lazy to others.
I choose to look toward the future. I will no longer beat myself up over old regrets or having a bad childhood. I've wasted too much time in my life on wishing that my past would have been different. The only thing I can change is how I live in the present.
I will live in the moment and responsibly seek joy and pleasure where I can find it. Life is too short, and I've been in hiding for too long.
I will no longer attempt to justify why I am in pain one day, and then able to dance, jog, or play the next. If someone wants a detailed medical explanation about chronic illness/pain, they are free to schedule an appointment with a specialist who can explain it to them.
I'm not a goddamn doctor.
And all clichés aside, I'm avoiding negative energy like the fucking plague. If that means not watching the news, not associating with people who do nothing but complain and criticize, so be it. Stress causes inflammation. Inflammation causes the pain to get worse.
Seeing that hip replacement surgery is in my future, and that I may now deal with chronic pain for the rest of my life, I'm digging my heels in.
I will exercise every day I possibly can, because I refuse to be heavy and unhealthy again; it is a joy to have the ability to move my body.
More than ever, I'm dedicated to my spiritual path and Craft. The link between the body and mind is crucial, especially when it comes to healing. I'm at the point in my witch life where I am seeking the deeper Mysteries and am much less concerned about spells as a resolution to every problem. I make time for spirit because I deserve peace.
Just because I have a chronic condition, doesn't mean I have to "look sick". I'm allowed to express my personality through clothes, makeup or nothing at all if I choose to do so. I refuse to relinquish my authenticity to others.
I refuse to feel bad about needing help. If that means food stamps, medical card, SSI, or even having to get a doctors note to have a chair at work, I will seek the resources I need without guilt or shame.
I will no longer feel guilty for needing to rest, even if that makes me appear lazy to others.
I choose to look toward the future. I will no longer beat myself up over old regrets or having a bad childhood. I've wasted too much time in my life on wishing that my past would have been different. The only thing I can change is how I live in the present.
I will live in the moment and responsibly seek joy and pleasure where I can find it. Life is too short, and I've been in hiding for too long.
I will no longer attempt to justify why I am in pain one day, and then able to dance, jog, or play the next. If someone wants a detailed medical explanation about chronic illness/pain, they are free to schedule an appointment with a specialist who can explain it to them.
I'm not a goddamn doctor.
And all clichés aside, I'm avoiding negative energy like the fucking plague. If that means not watching the news, not associating with people who do nothing but complain and criticize, so be it. Stress causes inflammation. Inflammation causes the pain to get worse.