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"the fire still burns.."
Feb. 6th, 2018 08:37 amThe past week or so has been a little crazy: work changes, unpredictable weather, and other peoples' drama.
Thankfully, I still made time to weave magic on the Full Blue Moon/Lunar Eclipse in Leo, as well as a small Imbolc a few days later.
My mentors gave a talk on how to apply the themes of Imbolc to our lives, regardless of the climate we live in or the particular gods we honor and work with. OF course, there was plenty of info about Brigid presented, and some of it was stuff I didn't know. yay, learning!
When I first considered signing up for this class, I was very sleptical because Wicca 101 seems to dominate most workshops. Thankfully, I have been pleasantly surprised and challenged the past 2 sessions :)
Anyway, we left with some homework assignments. To choose one ritual and to answer at least 3 of the suggested journal questions in our packet.
Since my BoS is unlined, I think I want to type this to sort my feelings out, then rephrase/retype to glue in later.
1. Consider that Imbolc is a time of Individuation rather than Union. The young Goddess and God are simply being themselves. They are pure potential, although the direction they are headed in can still be altered at any time. They have not yet been touched by death, sex, or even the heartbreaks of love. The decisions they may make as a Maiden or Youth are simply their own, not out of obligation to others. Not out of insecurity, desperation, or a need for approval.
How does this message apply to your current situation?
Describe a time when you were on the verge of independance, and made a choice that negatively impacted your journey. What were the influencing factors? State one positive thing (if you can) that came from the results of your decision.
At this time, I am trying to figure out where I will go next, in terms of moving, school, and just life in general. I'm currently single, so the decision I make are simply for my own enjoyment, advancement convenience, etc. On a more emotional note, I feel cleansed of a lot of the past negativity in my life. In some ways I do feel young again, in terms of not being jaded, pessimistic, over stressed etc like many people my age are. I may not be young anymore, but I can choose my attitude and how I perceive and interact with the world around me. I'm making the choice to not let the disappointments of the past influence me any longer.
When I was about 20 years old, I was in Job Corps. I had passed my GED and was in the top 10% of the nation, received a scholarship to the local community college. I was almost done with my pharmacy tech program and would have had a guaranteed job at Walgreens, as well as a $1500 check from job corps to help me get into an apartment. But, nope. I got together with Whitey and when he got kicked out, I stupidly left with him. The relationship definitely had it ups and downs; ultimately it was a waste of my potential and youth.
However, I will say that Whitey was one of the few guys who complimented me and genuinely wanted to know me as a person. He had a poets soul and could be very romantic at times.
I still remember one day at JC when someone in the hallway was making fun of my lazy eye. Unflinchingly he said "I think her eyes are beautiful." and then went on to describe the different colors in them, while the other guy just stood there looking like an asshole. He was the first I felt like ever actually stuck up for me and genuinely cared. I felt so embarrassed at the time, but I think that's one of the things I loved about Whitey.
He was the first person I ever met who really did not give a fuck what people thought of him (at that time anyway). He was himself at all times, and yet somehow, always managed to be liked by pretty much everyone who met him, even the little old lady who lived next door and hated everyone else in the building.
Whitey taught me how to cook as well. It's hard to write about someone who is gone now, and who definitely had a dark side that eventually took over his life :(
2.Music speaks to our soul. Choose a song from your youth that made you feel carefree, independent or even magical. Maybe it was playing during an important event, or maybe it reminds of you a first love. When you listen to this song now, what do you feel?.
That would definitely have to be "Bitch" by Meredith Brooks. While attending night school, I became friends with a girl named Tina. She is the one who gave me my first Silver RavenWolf book ahahaha Just thinking about it is putting a huge smile on my face. Two 90s teen witches dancing around to this song, lighting candles and just having fun under the full moon. Whenever I hear it now, the song definitely puts me in a good mood and gives me a sense of feeling free to be myself.
3.What will you do this Imbolc to create a new beginning for yourself? Describe your ritual, tools used, songs, chants, as well as your feelings after the ritual was complete.
The sabbat was also infused with all that juicy Leo Moon energy was happened on the 30/31. This was also the end of the cycle that began last august, with the new moon and solar eclipse in Leo.
I recharged the charm bag I made back in August. The charm was effective for what I needed it for at the time, but something was telling me I had more work to do with the bag and so I saved it. When I realized what was going on astrologically, I knew I had more work to do.
This particular goal affects every area of my life, and I am seeing the results bit by bit.
My tools were my blade, an orange candle, my orange charm bag and my altar tile, plus an offering to Brigid in the spirit of the sabbat that I kept going from the Full moon until Feb. 2.
For Imbolc, I consecrated my new Dreams of Gaia taot deck, and decidated it to be excusive used for the next 366. I love that it is not a traditional tarot, has none of the Christian symbolism, and has many horned god images. RAWR ;)
For music, Depeche Mode. "Insight" has always been one of my favorite songs, and it felt really appropriate for this ritual.
This is an insight into my life
This is a strange flight I’m taking
My true will carries me along...
This is a soul dance embracing me
Wisdom of ages, rush over me
Heighten my senses, enlighten me
Lead me on, eternally
And the spirit of love, is rising within me
Talking to you now, telling you clearly
The fire still burns
Whatever you do now
You've got to give love
Thankfully, I still made time to weave magic on the Full Blue Moon/Lunar Eclipse in Leo, as well as a small Imbolc a few days later.
My mentors gave a talk on how to apply the themes of Imbolc to our lives, regardless of the climate we live in or the particular gods we honor and work with. OF course, there was plenty of info about Brigid presented, and some of it was stuff I didn't know. yay, learning!
When I first considered signing up for this class, I was very sleptical because Wicca 101 seems to dominate most workshops. Thankfully, I have been pleasantly surprised and challenged the past 2 sessions :)
Anyway, we left with some homework assignments. To choose one ritual and to answer at least 3 of the suggested journal questions in our packet.
Since my BoS is unlined, I think I want to type this to sort my feelings out, then rephrase/retype to glue in later.
1. Consider that Imbolc is a time of Individuation rather than Union. The young Goddess and God are simply being themselves. They are pure potential, although the direction they are headed in can still be altered at any time. They have not yet been touched by death, sex, or even the heartbreaks of love. The decisions they may make as a Maiden or Youth are simply their own, not out of obligation to others. Not out of insecurity, desperation, or a need for approval.
How does this message apply to your current situation?
Describe a time when you were on the verge of independance, and made a choice that negatively impacted your journey. What were the influencing factors? State one positive thing (if you can) that came from the results of your decision.
At this time, I am trying to figure out where I will go next, in terms of moving, school, and just life in general. I'm currently single, so the decision I make are simply for my own enjoyment, advancement convenience, etc. On a more emotional note, I feel cleansed of a lot of the past negativity in my life. In some ways I do feel young again, in terms of not being jaded, pessimistic, over stressed etc like many people my age are. I may not be young anymore, but I can choose my attitude and how I perceive and interact with the world around me. I'm making the choice to not let the disappointments of the past influence me any longer.
When I was about 20 years old, I was in Job Corps. I had passed my GED and was in the top 10% of the nation, received a scholarship to the local community college. I was almost done with my pharmacy tech program and would have had a guaranteed job at Walgreens, as well as a $1500 check from job corps to help me get into an apartment. But, nope. I got together with Whitey and when he got kicked out, I stupidly left with him. The relationship definitely had it ups and downs; ultimately it was a waste of my potential and youth.
However, I will say that Whitey was one of the few guys who complimented me and genuinely wanted to know me as a person. He had a poets soul and could be very romantic at times.
I still remember one day at JC when someone in the hallway was making fun of my lazy eye. Unflinchingly he said "I think her eyes are beautiful." and then went on to describe the different colors in them, while the other guy just stood there looking like an asshole. He was the first I felt like ever actually stuck up for me and genuinely cared. I felt so embarrassed at the time, but I think that's one of the things I loved about Whitey.
He was the first person I ever met who really did not give a fuck what people thought of him (at that time anyway). He was himself at all times, and yet somehow, always managed to be liked by pretty much everyone who met him, even the little old lady who lived next door and hated everyone else in the building.
Whitey taught me how to cook as well. It's hard to write about someone who is gone now, and who definitely had a dark side that eventually took over his life :(
2.Music speaks to our soul. Choose a song from your youth that made you feel carefree, independent or even magical. Maybe it was playing during an important event, or maybe it reminds of you a first love. When you listen to this song now, what do you feel?.
That would definitely have to be "Bitch" by Meredith Brooks. While attending night school, I became friends with a girl named Tina. She is the one who gave me my first Silver RavenWolf book ahahaha Just thinking about it is putting a huge smile on my face. Two 90s teen witches dancing around to this song, lighting candles and just having fun under the full moon. Whenever I hear it now, the song definitely puts me in a good mood and gives me a sense of feeling free to be myself.
3.What will you do this Imbolc to create a new beginning for yourself? Describe your ritual, tools used, songs, chants, as well as your feelings after the ritual was complete.
The sabbat was also infused with all that juicy Leo Moon energy was happened on the 30/31. This was also the end of the cycle that began last august, with the new moon and solar eclipse in Leo.
I recharged the charm bag I made back in August. The charm was effective for what I needed it for at the time, but something was telling me I had more work to do with the bag and so I saved it. When I realized what was going on astrologically, I knew I had more work to do.
This particular goal affects every area of my life, and I am seeing the results bit by bit.
My tools were my blade, an orange candle, my orange charm bag and my altar tile, plus an offering to Brigid in the spirit of the sabbat that I kept going from the Full moon until Feb. 2.
For Imbolc, I consecrated my new Dreams of Gaia taot deck, and decidated it to be excusive used for the next 366. I love that it is not a traditional tarot, has none of the Christian symbolism, and has many horned god images. RAWR ;)
For music, Depeche Mode. "Insight" has always been one of my favorite songs, and it felt really appropriate for this ritual.
This is an insight into my life
This is a strange flight I’m taking
My true will carries me along...
This is a soul dance embracing me
Wisdom of ages, rush over me
Heighten my senses, enlighten me
Lead me on, eternally
And the spirit of love, is rising within me
Talking to you now, telling you clearly
The fire still burns
Whatever you do now
You've got to give love