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rainy Saturday morning
May. 6th, 2023 07:38 amHave not dyed my hair in a really, really long time and now have a silver stripe forming on the right side.
I think I will be one of those people who looks good with grey hair. We shall see.
Got a second job at my apartment complex now, as a pool attendant part-time. Super easy and literally one minute away from my front door.
Making the decision to exit DePaul was the best thing I've done in a long time. As much as I wanted to finish my degree, so much of the course curriculum felt like a giant waste of time. It would be different if I were in wide-eyed freshman living on campus, having the whole "college experience" and learning about a world bigger than my hometown for the first time ever.
Part of me felt cheated by the online format that provided very little interaction from the professors. I felt like I was teaching myself and getting ripped off in the process. I loved being in the classroom, but unfortunately it was always incompatible with work schedules. An online program designed for working adult students should be focusing on the skills and theories needed for the particular career field the student is pursing, rather than using the same curriculum that is used for the on-campus "normal" students.
Really, I had to let go of the idea that I was only going to feel good about myself if I got a Masters. Sounds stupid but that was a plan of mine for a very, very long time. I felt that I needed to do it for younger me, like I owed her something. Truth is, too much time has passed, the world changed because of Covid, and let's face it- I'm not a 20-something anymore.
My energy is divested with real-world adult problems, and honestly, I'm much more aware of how many people with graduate degrees are actually underemployed. The debt is not always worth it. Especially as you get older and have less time to pay it off.
I have finally made peace with my decision. I can always learn and read on my own time.
Youth, intelligence, and dreams aside, I never had Rory Gilmore's budget. Would have just ending up at a cheap college anyway. Deep down, a part of me will always wish for the university experience I never got to have, and that's ok. I can live out my dark academia fantasy elsewhere-thanks, gen Z <3
Still studying for my SHRM but of course I had to get witchy with it!
Scheduled my exam for the morning of the Summer Solstice for extra positivity, confidence, and success. Plus, it will be on a Wednesday which is a great day for taking an exam-especially for us Geminis<333
I think I will be one of those people who looks good with grey hair. We shall see.
Got a second job at my apartment complex now, as a pool attendant part-time. Super easy and literally one minute away from my front door.
Making the decision to exit DePaul was the best thing I've done in a long time. As much as I wanted to finish my degree, so much of the course curriculum felt like a giant waste of time. It would be different if I were in wide-eyed freshman living on campus, having the whole "college experience" and learning about a world bigger than my hometown for the first time ever.
Part of me felt cheated by the online format that provided very little interaction from the professors. I felt like I was teaching myself and getting ripped off in the process. I loved being in the classroom, but unfortunately it was always incompatible with work schedules. An online program designed for working adult students should be focusing on the skills and theories needed for the particular career field the student is pursing, rather than using the same curriculum that is used for the on-campus "normal" students.
Really, I had to let go of the idea that I was only going to feel good about myself if I got a Masters. Sounds stupid but that was a plan of mine for a very, very long time. I felt that I needed to do it for younger me, like I owed her something. Truth is, too much time has passed, the world changed because of Covid, and let's face it- I'm not a 20-something anymore.
My energy is divested with real-world adult problems, and honestly, I'm much more aware of how many people with graduate degrees are actually underemployed. The debt is not always worth it. Especially as you get older and have less time to pay it off.
I have finally made peace with my decision. I can always learn and read on my own time.
Youth, intelligence, and dreams aside, I never had Rory Gilmore's budget. Would have just ending up at a cheap college anyway. Deep down, a part of me will always wish for the university experience I never got to have, and that's ok. I can live out my dark academia fantasy elsewhere-thanks, gen Z <3
Still studying for my SHRM but of course I had to get witchy with it!
Scheduled my exam for the morning of the Summer Solstice for extra positivity, confidence, and success. Plus, it will be on a Wednesday which is a great day for taking an exam-especially for us Geminis<333