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Dec. 3rd, 2020 08:39 amSo I had the idea I was going to have a "public blog" that focused on other stuff rather than my personal ramblings.
Eh....maybe it is because life is so boring right now, but I just don't feel like writing there.
What's new in my world?
Got back into strength training which I abandoned somewhere in 2019-and it shows :(
Its only been a month, results are slowly starting, and I have to remember to be patient.
Also, I know it isn't fair to hold myself hostage to how I looked in the past. Or counting every calorie. Or being obsessed with keto, IF, or whatever "diet" is out there. Sometimes, I want a fucking cheeseburger or some strawberries. the idea that entire should groups should be banned or severely is a system I refuse to operate from.
Covendom is wonderful. My HPS is awesome. As much as I loved my old group, there was a lot of dysfunction when it came t planning, scheduling, prepping, etc. Here, the energy seems much more focused and, dare I say, potent. Yes, we did some amazing magic and ritual, but the personality clashes between certain members were difficult to navigate at times. I'm happy that the threads of fate led me to this particular opportunity.
Sick of my hair. No matter what I do, my hair is just really prone to breakage and split ends. It always has been, regardless of what products or foods are involved. I think I've finally accepted that and am looking froward to finding a new style. It just isn't working for me anymore. Plus, with the (hopefully) new job I will be traveling and in an executive position. I need to find someone that is easy for me to maintain but no more pixies for me. The great lie of short hair is that it usually takes more product, styling and frequent haircuts to look really good. I need something that can be thrown in a bun with just a little hairspray. To pintrest I go....
Last night, my friend Mark and I were discussing the latest episode of Cemetery Confessions (he also happened to be the former co-host). I have a lot to say regarding this year's annual "gothquisition", but I'll reserve that for another time. The conversation revealed the mutual feeling that perhaps discussing, dissecting and criticizing people/ideas in the community eventually leads to a lack of passion or excitement about it all. Or maybe its just because we are getting old, can't go anywhere because of Covid, whatever. He said that one of the reasons he quit the podcast was because he felt like he had nothing else to say on topics that had been covered repeatedly. At some point you just live your life, decorate your batcave and enjoy the music-it doesn't need to constantly be analyzed.
To an extent, I agree. On the other hand, I think the real problem is that you have a select few who have a platform and think they speak for everyone. And if someone has a dissenting opinion, they are too afraid to make a video or podcast because they don't want to be attacked and shunned by the well known goth vlog/bloggers. For example, people have FINALLY seen through Adora BatBrat and cancelled her for good this year. I've disliked her since the myspace era but anytime her name got brought up, it was as if you'd better sing her praises or people would call you an elitist. No. She's always been racist and has promoted eating disorders from day one. Never had any business being associated with goth culture.
Just got back from a nice long walk. Feeling thankful that we aren't covered in snow yet. Might get out the Yule decorations and reset my altar today as well :)
Eh....maybe it is because life is so boring right now, but I just don't feel like writing there.
What's new in my world?
Got back into strength training which I abandoned somewhere in 2019-and it shows :(
Its only been a month, results are slowly starting, and I have to remember to be patient.
Also, I know it isn't fair to hold myself hostage to how I looked in the past. Or counting every calorie. Or being obsessed with keto, IF, or whatever "diet" is out there. Sometimes, I want a fucking cheeseburger or some strawberries. the idea that entire should groups should be banned or severely is a system I refuse to operate from.
Covendom is wonderful. My HPS is awesome. As much as I loved my old group, there was a lot of dysfunction when it came t planning, scheduling, prepping, etc. Here, the energy seems much more focused and, dare I say, potent. Yes, we did some amazing magic and ritual, but the personality clashes between certain members were difficult to navigate at times. I'm happy that the threads of fate led me to this particular opportunity.
Sick of my hair. No matter what I do, my hair is just really prone to breakage and split ends. It always has been, regardless of what products or foods are involved. I think I've finally accepted that and am looking froward to finding a new style. It just isn't working for me anymore. Plus, with the (hopefully) new job I will be traveling and in an executive position. I need to find someone that is easy for me to maintain but no more pixies for me. The great lie of short hair is that it usually takes more product, styling and frequent haircuts to look really good. I need something that can be thrown in a bun with just a little hairspray. To pintrest I go....
Last night, my friend Mark and I were discussing the latest episode of Cemetery Confessions (he also happened to be the former co-host). I have a lot to say regarding this year's annual "gothquisition", but I'll reserve that for another time. The conversation revealed the mutual feeling that perhaps discussing, dissecting and criticizing people/ideas in the community eventually leads to a lack of passion or excitement about it all. Or maybe its just because we are getting old, can't go anywhere because of Covid, whatever. He said that one of the reasons he quit the podcast was because he felt like he had nothing else to say on topics that had been covered repeatedly. At some point you just live your life, decorate your batcave and enjoy the music-it doesn't need to constantly be analyzed.
To an extent, I agree. On the other hand, I think the real problem is that you have a select few who have a platform and think they speak for everyone. And if someone has a dissenting opinion, they are too afraid to make a video or podcast because they don't want to be attacked and shunned by the well known goth vlog/bloggers. For example, people have FINALLY seen through Adora BatBrat and cancelled her for good this year. I've disliked her since the myspace era but anytime her name got brought up, it was as if you'd better sing her praises or people would call you an elitist. No. She's always been racist and has promoted eating disorders from day one. Never had any business being associated with goth culture.
Just got back from a nice long walk. Feeling thankful that we aren't covered in snow yet. Might get out the Yule decorations and reset my altar today as well :)